Fifteen-year-old Gale is desperate to get out of Whitehorse, a fact that is immediately clear to counsellor Helen Cotillard when Gale walks into her office with her reluctant stepmother. It's 1995, and one counselling agency for kids and families serves all of the Yukon. Gale has been having anxiety attacks, the last one so severe it landed her in the hospital.
Helen soon begins to realize that Gale's distress at being separated from her little sister Buddie too closely parallels a calamity from her own past. This tragic similarity leaves Helen uneasy about her profession and her ability to help her clients. When Gale does escape back to her home in Cobalt, Ontario, to protect Buddie from their brutal mother, she risks her own future.
Through arresting, compelling images, Jill Frayne shows both the fierce beauty of the Yukon, and the damaged, enduring landscapes of two human hearts.
Praise for Why I'm Here:
"Why I'm Here is a brave novel about how families define people's lives and destinies."
~ Jeremiah Rood, Foreword Reviews
"From the boreal forests of the Yukon to Canadian Shield country in Ontario, Frayne writes with graceful, devastating power about the hold of place and family on people, and the way love runs strange and wayward and deep through both. The result is a novel with all the clean lines and stark beauty of a glacier, revealing the crevasses that tear lives apart but also, despite everything, link them together."
~ Kate Harris, author of Lands of Lost Borders
"I loved reading this exquisite portrait of a therapist's relationship to a teenage girl whose violent past has followed her to the Yukon, where the landscape can both wound and heal. Jill Frayne writes about the far North with the same wisdom and tenderness she brings to the lives of her unforgettable characters."
~ Marni Jackson, author of Don't I Know You?
"The 'here' in the title is the clue: Why I'm Here is about place. To those in the South, Yukon is landscape. To those who live there, it's a tough, beautiful, and ultimately forgiving embrace. The challenges Frayne's characters face in this tough, beautiful and forgiving novel don't come from the land, but from their own inability to leave their pasts behind."
~ Wayne Grady, author of The Good Father
"What a perfect title Jill Frayne chose for her wonderful novel. The 'here' of Why I'm Here first suggests physical places, and Frayne's descriptions of Whitehorse and Atlin, BC, are irresistibly seductive. She is a master of inner weather as well as outer: 'here' is also home, a safe place, a place where you are important. More than one daughter in this book searches for home, and Frayne skillfully unspools the complicated relationship between a troubled girl and her counsellor. As for the revelatory ending, it is one of the most surprising and satisfying conclusions I have read in years."
~ Katherine Ashenburg, author of Sofie & Cecilia and Her Turn
"Frayne is masterful in weaving together the internal and external worlds. She builds them with equal beauty and complexity using language as clear and fresh as the northern landscapes she describes. Why I'm Here is vivid, powerful, and a skilled reflection on life itself. Frayne shows us our own fallibility-and pathways through it-with careful attention."
~ Jennifer Kingsley, author of Paddlenorth: Adventure, Resilience, and Renewal in the Arctic Wild